Be the Good in the World

Over the last few months a lot of crappy things have been happening all across the globe. There have been shootings, natural disasters, bombings, and many more awful things. It just makes me so sad that there is so much suffering in the world to people who do not deserve it. So I don't know about you, but I badly need to remember that there is love and hope in the world. I've gathered together some of my favorite quotes and pictures that help me see that although we live in such an awful time, there is always hope.

1. Anne Frank is a huge inspiration to me. She went through so much in her lifetime that I can't even imagine being in her shoes. In her diary she has multiple quotes that help me see that even though terrible things happen we need to keep a positive attitude.

2. Samwise Gamgee is one of the best literary characters ever. His speech during The Two Towers always helps me have hope that there is good in the world, even when everything sucks, we just need to look for it. 

3. J.K. Rowling is an amazing author. She taught the world so much just through the Harry Potter series. She taught us that there is always good and bad, we just have to find the good and sometimes we have to be the light in the world.

4. The newest version of Cinderella brought us this beautiful quote about how we need to be kind to help there be more kindness and goodness in the world.

5. Here are a few articles that show there is good in people.

Army of volunteers line the streets to help Hurricane Harvey victims

http://www.lifebuzz.com/acts-of-kindness/

https://www.buzzfeed.com/cassiesmyth/pictures-that-prove-theres-more-good-in-the-world-than-bad?utm_term=.jrJEyr2d1X#.ur9WLKp4zP

There's so much crap going on in the world, some of it we can't control, but there are so many things that can help us see the good in the world. Even something as small as smiling at a person on the street can help. Try to be the good in your life and in someone else's, it makes the world a better place to live in. 

Sometimes Life Throws You a Curveball

If you need to know one thing about me, it's that I absolutely hate confrontation. I will do almost everything to not have to confront someone about something. So here's me kind of confronting a problem, but still avoiding telling people face to face because I'm a huge chicken.

These last few months have been a bit of a struggle bus for me. If I'm being honest, it kind of started a year ago. A few semesters ago, I was in my English education capstone class. We did a personality test, and I learned I was a phlegmatic (easy going, quiet, etc.). My teacher explained that out of all the teacher personalities, phlegmatics get burned out the fastest. As I got to know my personality better, I started to wonder if I really did want to be a teacher, or if I'd just wanted to be one for so long that I just went with it. This last semester I did my student teaching. There was definitely at least one or two days where I really liked it, but most of the days I didn't. I told people I was loving it because that's what they expected. I think I was also hoping if I said it enough then I would believe it. When I finished student teaching, everyone kept pressuring me to get job interviews. Every interview I went to I felt uncomfortable and knew I didn't want to be there. I almost started crying before one because I felt so sick being there. I stopped going to interviews and just avoided questions about getting a job as best I could, still not telling anyone how I felt. I wasn't sure if I was just afraid of taking the next step into adulthood, or if I really shouldn't be teaching. I started to pray about it a few weeks ago and I was struggling to get an answer. People kept trying to help me find a job, and I would just shut down and try to change the subject. I was grateful for their help, but I also hated that I felt like I couldn't tell them what I was feeling. I was afraid of disappointing the people around me. I've talked about being a teacher since I was in elementary school, and everyone has kind of expected it since then. I also didn't want to tell them because then they might be mad that I wasted my time and money, not to mention my family's time and money, in going to school for five years to end up in something I didn't want to be in. I already feel like I've disappointed people in so many other aspects of my life, I didn't want to do it again. Finally, a few days ago I remembered a lesson I had in institute once about receiving revelation. My teacher said that sometimes we have to make our own decision, then ask Heavenly Father if it is the right decision. I was in my car driving home from Provo, feeling very confused about where my life needed to go. I decided then to not be a teacher, for now, and asked God if that was okay. Almost immediately after I made the decision, I felt more peaceful than I had in a long time. I felt like a giant load had been taken off of my shoulders.


So here I am, living at my parents, working a part time job that is only $9/hr, the family disappointment, but I feel alright with that for now. I want those who have supported me and tried to help me find a teaching job that I am grateful for them, but I'm where I need to be at the moment. I just need to find out what interests me enough to go into. All I know is I like books, movies, and helping people. I'm considering a masters degree in Library Sciences so I can be around books, a masters in film studies so I can be around movies, or possibly a masters in counseling/therapy because I want to help people, and I'm good at listening to their problems. I think it would also be really cool to try to work/live in England somehow, but I have no idea where to even begin with that. Also my dad once told me he had a dream I worked in the forest service, so who knows what the future will bring? If you have any suggestions I'm completely open to them. All I have left to say is

because I'm going to be here a while.

Jaclyn out.